I’ve spent a good part of my time to grow up this club, it is a project I believe in and in which I see a great potential.ย
I like to live the backstage, that’s where you really can see all the work that goes into making things work properly.ย
There is always a lot to learn, and there is always to deal with situations that are not that familiar to me.
Sometimes it is easy, sometimes less, but that is what excites me.
I built the club and then the website following my personal idea not only related to how I see BDSM but also to how I see social moments.
There is much more into building both the room and the website than eyes can see;ย every wall is filled with passion, sweat, joys and sorrows; into every small object there are thoughts, questions that have been answered and others that still have not….
Was above all the desire to give a gift
I gifted the woman I love my thoughts, questions, my whole points of view, opening up myself to dialogue and confrontation, and after a while the need to open up this very personal vision of mine to everyone grew up and exploded.
I’ve got support from my wife and the ones closest to us.
Along the way, other people joined in and when I see them fully embracing this vision, I feel encouraged to do more and better.
I find it stimulating to meet new people,ย and evenย if I seem always quiet, sometimes absent, this is not really the truth.
I carefully observe everything that happens around me and I learn from it.
My chat box never has open DMs and I usually never take the initiative to approach other people. I usually am not the first asking for friendship:
it takes up my time and certainly makes me look like someone sitting on the sidelines, but again that’s not the truth.
I take part in the activities proposed by reading whoever is experiencing the nest and answering when I am directly approached.
Is something new to me, and I am trying to get used to it again. This is the bill to pay as a consequence of being isolated and closed into myself for so long time.
Through all its channels, the Nest is an excellent test to compare to and to improve myself.
Through the website I certainly can satisfy the need to express myself, sharing my point of view and also submitting itย to other people to talk with and share their opinion.
It’s satisfating and fulfilling to see that during the opening nights of the Phoenix’s Nest Club, each single corner I built is experienced and lived and felt as i built it up.
This slowly brings me back to the normal reality, step by step. Of course, sometimes there are ups and downs, days where I have a huge disposition to share everything, other when i feel not that aim.
I think it is normal, people have always struggled with their innate dissatisfaction and need to try satisfying themselves with all the tools they have at their disposal, inventing or creating them, if necessary.
The Phoenix Nest is for meย a great lesson, a part of my personal life. It’s like a tree that has grew its roots and crossed up with other thousands roots from other trees… And this is something I am proud of.
